A comment...

I am so sorry you are going through so much... The pain of losing our child / children, is the worst... I'm only 43 & it'll be 2 years in April since we lost our youngest son (forever 18 yrs, 7 months, & 24 days old) because of a car accident... That day was the worst day of my life, but since his death, I have felt that pain over & over again, but yet I do sometimes have a good day, when the tears are very minimum... I don't know if it will ever get easier... The grief Feeling we go through when our children die, is like a lightning bolt to a huge Tree, total dispair... But it's during those times we have to think more about being Blessed with all the time we DID GET with our children... Yeah, I can talk about both positives & negatives, but it takes both to make the world turn... So When you're feeling down, look up! Broken </3 Hearts can heal....... well....... that's what I've been told.......